June 23, 2015
Can't probably do justice to all the things where God has already provided and taught me. Our group found out while we were checking in that we couldn't take the large totes we had packed full of supplies!!! Not good but God had our back and were able to get her suitcases from spouses and get them back to us just in time. We were literally the last ones on the plane but with five minutes to spare😉 nice try satan!!! God has shown up in a very tough situation with a sick man Guadalupa. He became very sick and now into kidney disease but found out that the social security/ health plan Vision Nicaragua was helping him with was one that does t cover dialysis which is needed for him now and he would have to wait til October. He needs blood as well and the hospital doesn't have it so they have to go to Red Cross and find some. Also his social security money that he should get as a small supplement while he is truly sick and can't work as much is now convienently not available either. So with a terrified wife and brother who also worked the cane fields, at the front porch of the mission house trying to figure what to do with Ron we had the chance to pray over them and ask for favor and guidance over them all. What a pleasure to be right here and see and participate in what God is doing here. The people come and live with "nothing much" in our eyes but yet they have so much. They have each other, many have Jesus and their church family and activities. They are so thankful for anything they get. They are clean amongst the dirt floors and little soap or cleaning products. They take each day as it comes And just enjoy what they have. So amazing to get to see the special needs school and play with them and know there is a good place for them to go to school with teachers who truly love them. Or today seeing our first medical clinic where a small child came who needed to go to the hospital cause she had a high fever and vomiting over and over and be cause we were there she got a ride to the hospital that she might not have been able to get other wise. Or this afternoon during the clinic where we get to see over and over how content the kids are to just watch play or hang out with us and absolutely love anything we pull out. Hoping I can take that home with me. That I am happy with what I'm given and not always looking for the next thing to satisfy me.
January 29, 2015
Today was a great day on the level of measuring what went well. I spent time with a great friend and we both walked away refreshed and energized to face homeschooling and life again, Grace nailed her schoolwork, Avery did as well and took a nap so Grace and I got alone time during school time, Drew is pretty much potty training himself this week and well Selah is just the sweet easy going girl she has always been. Lord thank you for a a lighter day to spur me on to what is ahead cause we all know this only happens once in awhile :-) PS Lord, thank you for continuing to beg me to start my day with you!
January 21, 2015
Just cause I'm getting back into it I wanted to post some fun pics of our craziness lately cause of sickness and winter blues. I turn to fun stuff after I freak out :) Well and because she is just soo cute!!! Because when you are just not going to accomplish any more in a day, daddy is upstairs sick in bed, they have snacked way too much already, and there aren't many great lunch options....you let them make pizza!!!
January 16, 2015
Yep, it's been so long that the browser forgot where this was. Life is full and different everyday. I wanted to record things about the kids more often but it's just not always happening. Grace-I tell here and there right before she goes to sleep that no matter how good or bad of a day she has had I love her no matter what no more or less. So a few times she has tried to rephrase this and say it to me. Tonight she said, " you mean the most to me no matter what and Daddy and you are the most important to me no matter what." After a very long week of Matt having the flu and now Selah having a head cold, that is exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you Lord for speaking through her ;) Avery- Matt has been sick from Monday til today Friday. Monday night she realized that when he came home from work and wasn't coming out of Drew's room where he had been quarantined she would miss her tickle time before bed with him. It was a long week for her. She checked on him several times a day making sure he was taking his oils and making sure he didn't need anything else. Then tonight as we are playing on the basement and daddy joins us she looks up at me and says, "does this mean we can tickle with daddy?" She was so excited to go hit him to get it all riled up!!! Drew- has a sweet way if complimenting things lately. He may see a baby and say four or five times "she's cute mommy!" He is talking all the time and very good and changing your directive statement of what he is not to be doing to a statement about what he IS going to do!!! Needless to say he is finding out even cute 2 years get disciplined. He is coming around but it is a shock to mommy and daddy cause he has been so sweet and compliant befor now. Oh well, we've been down this road! Selah- she is simply a delight. Even with a 102.3 temp today and snot running down she is so pleasant and loves to say MOMMA MOMMA all day long! So for that she can have ANYTHING she wants!!!! Fourth times the charm! She has been social from the get go. My only child to go with me to several meetings and girls nights first because it would be easier for daddy but secondly cause surely she would just sleep.....NOT!!!!!!....she was amazing at staying awake the second she realizes something is going on. Now she wasn't a pain cause she is so sweet but geesh were on my time sista! Homeschooling is going well for this stage of the game I'm assured by others ahead of me!!! Grace is working hard in reading and addition and studying Genesis. Avery is now at home for pre-k to help with less caious and isn't always sure she needs to be homeschooled cause the IPad is way more interesting...at times I'm sure it is, so we're working in more craft and video learning to help her transition. Splurged on the Reading Rainbow app and so glad I did. It's a huge hit for break time while I'm working youth the other girl. ABCMouse.com app is another hit! I'm so glad I ve been running into and having time with other homeschooling moms with older kids than mine. They have been incredibly encouraging that whatever I am accomplishing is great and keep remembering they need to know you love them and let them learn certain things as their ready not when you are! I have tons of stories I could tell about how things crash at moments too....like showing our house 13 times in 7 weeks while homeschooling and letting 4 children live in it!! They still love to crowd any toilet or shower I'm in or phone I'm on....unless the ipad is free:) I get told a lot how cute and well behaved they are and they really are. They just like to let loose for me here and there! We've been studying Shepharding a Child's Heart with dear friends and loving it. It was an extremely long few weeks getting starting with setting up new expectations and disciplining appropriately. I feel like we are on our way to having a much better handle on what God expects out of us and how to strive towards turning their hearts to Jesus. Cause really that's what matters. Not what their learning at school or how many verses they memorized but the way they are living for The Lord. ****im using the glorious ipad....which means I can't edit my typing very well for some reason and because I want to say ten million things tonight! I'm typing too fast to catch things SORRY!!!*** The days are long but the years are short is a phrase that is ringing in my head so much lately. It's so true Grace is so tall and so mature. She was just three a day ago!! Selah is 8.5 months which is very close to a year which is close to NOT BEING A BABY ANYMORE!!!!! What that means I won't have any babies to snuggle....oh and trust me she isn't a snuggler when she is sick and it's 2am she wants to sit straight up and chat!
May 15, 2014
So last Thursday I went in for my normal check to find out I hadn't really progressed but still very uncomfortable and having random contractions. So dr Weber offered for me to come in Monday and see if I was any more favorable and then he would break my water and see what happened. I was so thrilled that there might finally be an end insight. It was also Drew's bday on Monday so it would be fun for them to share...we'll see what they say about that in a few years. So we went in and I had progressed but not much but my blood pressure was high and so he said let's go ahead!!!!!! So we head over and about 10am they get me all fixed up and break my water. Now the dr and nurses told me things could take quite a while and I should have a baby by dinner time. I realize man that's going to be a long day of wait....what's that a contraction??? Holy moly that ones hurts...it's 10:40... And contractions have begun and they are strong. So by this point they had unhooked me and said I could walk around...no thanks this hurts enough just sitting here. So I start tracking the contractions on my phone...8min, 8min, 7min, 4min...I'm in labor folks and!!! When. The nurse came back in to see how I was and make sure I knew to let her know when I wanted the epidural cause the anesthesia guy was busy in the OR for at least 30more minutes. I assured her iwas ok and I wanted to wait til I was checked again to make sure I had made some progress since at 10 I was only 3cm. Then another huge and strong contractions hit about a minute later and I had changed my mind I needed him to head my way as soon as he could. So she checks me a few minutes later about 11:45 and I'm a 6. At this point she leaves me to laboring to go checking the ORR and get the nurses ready cause she realizes this girls going it too have a baby soon. I'm just sitting there thinking oh my 30min plus numbing time is a LONG ways away at 3min apart. So I start saying my ABC's and anything else I can think if to bear through these intense contractions. So by 12:30 my dr comes I again to be informed that this baby is coming and let me one that the pain relief is still 30min out...aka...I'm not getting any. So the room is prepped and I'm still thinking surely I will get meds right I have no idea iow to do natural labor...oh honey I was already in full blown natural labor and checked a few minutes later and was a 9cm and little cervix left...WHAT???....somebody said dinner and he would be here in 30min with my epidural????? NOPE I'm getting really to push this thing out! I look at my dr eyes and say, "please tell me I can do this cause I really don't know if I can." He and the two nurses quickly (oh yah and Matt an right by my side and in just as much shock as I am in and he also assures me I can do this.) say yes you can you are already doing great breathing and taking each one well and as soon as I can push against the pain it will feel much better. And because the baby had do roped I did have the urge to push so relief was coming as soon as I was 10...and folks I was 10 literally after three contractions of being 9....so he says ok you can push and literally I Take a demo breath as he is talking and push for about 5-6seconds and the head comes out. Take a deep breath and on a few seconds later contraction comes and and out comes her body! They're going slow to pull the baby cause they know it's a surprise and I'm saying ok what is it? And they reveal ITS A GIRL!!! Matt and I both look in shock at this precious baby girl! A:we still can't believe what just happened so fast and B: we totally thought it was going to be a boy. Neither was upset we were just shocked that God had picked another girl for us. She was perfect and cried right away and stopped as soon as she was on my chest. She was very alert and look all around for quite awhile at her new world. After the adrenaline rush left my body and Selah(pronounced "say-luh") was getting cleaned up, I could then start to process and be so grateful for a beautiful baby girl who we chose the name Selah not knowing how key it's meaning would be. See about three weeks before I had prayed with some amazing ladies at church about my anxiety I have about labor and how I really dont well mentally just thinking about going into labor. What a powerful and healing evening for me. God parole in amazing ways and gave me tools to prepare for labor as well as how to live in to the truth He had revealed that night. During labor not once did I have the fear or defeat I would have normally had. The whole time I was able to cling to the bed but also truth and not the lies Satan had even feeding me before!!!! So when went to recovery and it was quiet Matt puts it all together of how amazing God was to ordain the prayer time to prep me for an intense labor where I could only cling to Him and then give the name Selah which means to pause and give praise to The Lord, what an amazing story He had just written right before our eyes. We both agreed having another boy would have been our perfect plan but God keeps us on our toes and knew what He was doing :) So now I sit here 6days in and love this beautiful girl and adding her to our circus, but even more am in awe of God and His mighty hands and heart for us. He knows what we worry about and wants to help and heal and I'm so glad He did. w
I'm thinking at some point soon I might start to feel a rhythm and my new normal will just flow.... Flow tiredness, spit up dirty diapers, whining, tantrums, begging for sugar, begging for anything they don't need or don't normally get.... Who am I kidding? Four kids ain't easy and I really can't keep setting myself up like this thinking I should or life will be all out together soon. This week I have tried to really take a deep breath and just live. We're staying home more and in our jammies or whatever is comfy and we're getting a lot of reading talking and family time in. We already miss Matt's parents who were just here, but also excited to figure out what our day to day is going to look like. Selah really is a great sleeper at night especially so I can't complain there. She is starting to stay awake more so it's nice to hang out with her when I can since I have two mini Me's want to constantly hold her. Drew is repeating most of what we say. His "I love you" just about stupid me in my tracks every time. He is such a sweet boy who I am so thankful for. Can't believe he will be my only boy but what a Heartbreaker he will be :-) Avery asked me today when she will get married. I told her it will be a long time from now and she said that's fine cause she wants to marry daddy. Grace is a little tough right now with her wanting to be grown up tendencies but I'm trying to take time for just her and give her space to play alone and that seems to help. She is so just like me... She wants to badly mother Selah and the rest of the house for that matter but also be in charge of herself and do for herself what she sees to be best.... Where the friction is. I think she is coming around to submitting to authority better in the last few days but I have also put some oils on their feet to help them sleep better and that seems to be working :-) So overall, I have zero complaints I'm just excited that is my journey with these rascals just needing wisdom on what to do and a breather from time to time... Good thing we serve an awesome God who goes before us and gives us just what we need :-)